It only took 4 1/2 years, but I finally got a new lens for my DSLR. I bought this 50mm from my friend Ana. I’m not even going to lie… a little part of me is hoping she left a little bit of her magic in it! The timing was perfect because all the trees are starting to bloom. I don’t think there is a better subject for this sort of lens.

I’m glad to have something new to occupy my mind. Since my nervous breakdown last November, I’ve had a hard time pulling myself together. My dad used to tell us that if we act happy long enough, we will become happy. I’m all for the idea of choice: Choose to be happy. Choose to be kind. Choose to be creative. But it’s been months and I still cry every single day. Really? Is this it? There is a part of me that feels like it’s just too much. I can’t do this. But every day I get up and somehow I make it through. Mike tells me that I am stronger than I feel and I know he must be right because I’m doing it. I guess I’m just waiting for it to get easier. How long does  a broken heart take to heal? Inquiring minds want to know…

You’re lucky spring doesn’t last all year because I never get tired of this!

On a more positive note, Mike took me to Ruidoso this weekend to celebrate. He got a job. Yay! And my first semester of school is halfway over. Three of the classes I took are mini-semesters and the amount of work I was doing during the first half was a little overwhelming. Two of the three are completely over (got an A+ in both of them) and one has another two weeks to go. Midterms are over and spring break is just around the corner. I needed a break from the kids before I take a break with the kids. It was funny because the first part of our trip sucked because I felt guilty for leaving them behind. The last part of our trip sucked because I was missing them like crazy. But the MIDDLE? Was fantastic. I ate crème brulée, my very favorite dessert. [It had lavender in it, which reminded me of Myla. Go check out her story... so inspiring!] We tried a new restaurant and the chile rellenos were the best I’ve had ever in my whole life. We saw Crazy Heart, which I loved. We also saw The Hangover, which made me laugh a LOT.

Speaking of movies, did you watch the Oscars? The kids and I had a contest with PRIZES. I wanted Crazy Heart and The Hurt Locker to win everything. The kids all voted for Avatar. Needless to say, I am still the Oscar picking champion of the house.

There was a moment on Saturday morning when I was looking out of our window and a beautiful rainbow appeared over the lake. It was so close to the ground that it looked like it was touching the water right in front of me. I grabbed the camera and took a picture while yelling for Mike to come and look. Before I could get out on the balcony to take a ‘real’ picture the rainbow was gone. It was thirty seconds of wonderful. I needed that.

Ruidoso on flickr: set | slideshow

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