life goes on
and it feels like I don’t have time for this anymore… Since school started I’ve been ten times busier and my panic attacks have gotten worse. As long as I’m at home or in the van or somewhere familiar I’m okay. Otherwise, I feel like I can’t breathe and my chest tightens up and I’m prone to bouts of crying. I had to drop my photography class. It was the only one I was taking at the university; the others are online. It sucks because that was the class I wanted to take the most. I was fine in the classroom, but parking and getting from the van to the building was too much. The last time I tried I seriously thought I was going to have to go to the hospital because I couldn’t breathe at all. My other six classes are great and I’m doing well. The biggest thing I’m getting used to is not having the time to do everything around the house, cooking and cleaning etc. It will take some time for everyone to adjust to that, I guess. Right now I’m trying to find my groove, busy but happy.
Try liquid valerian root. You can get it in the mall and its roughly eight bucks a bottle. Works for me.